I've been considering going on hiatus from the blog for a while, and today seems like a good point. The Statehouse, it appears, voted to approve the budget for the Garrahy Garage. I think I fooled myself into thinking that because I had been writing about this and sending letters to representatives, and because I had gone up to the Statehouse and spoken at the meeting on the line item, that I had made my point clear enough that there was a chance the money wouldn't go through. We did indeed get one mayoral candidate (so far) to go on record against the spending. But for the most part, I feel like the effort was pissing in the wind, because Rhode Island just doesn't get that it's going to find itself under water (literally and figuratively) if it doesn't change its ways. It seems we think we're going to change everything through solar cars and cats from space, or whatever other strange technologies du jour happen to pop up.
I feel disgusted and burnt out, and my urge is to not care at all what happens to this city or state, and to just give up. So I'm going to step away from the blog--which feels like an unhappy duty--and try to enjoy myself.
Writing a blog, to me, doesn't feel like a good way to interact with the world. I don't honestly like computers very much. Feeling that there's a responsibility to produce content for people to read about these issues means having to interact with a technology that at once connects me to many people, but also separates me. It means being much more sedentary and alone than I'd like to be. And I'm not sure it produces change.
I should say that going on break from the blog doesn't mean not being involved. I am currently working on what seems like a potential success with Hope Street merchants, to get protected bike lanes installed there. I continue to be excited about Hugo Bruggeman's "better boulevard" idea for Blackstone Boulevard. And the WBNA is now working as a partner to get a temporary protected bike lane for Park(ing) Day. So I'm sure I'll have my hands full. But I'd prefer as little of that to have to do with blogging or Twitter as possible.
So perhaps you'll hear much less from the computer, but see my face in the sun more.
Happy biking/bus riding. Get off your computer and go change something.